Better and worse at the same time

How am I doing? Better and worse at the same time. I am sleeping better; I am getting to work and most days able to work hard and be fully engaged; taking care of the household somewhat; handling some paperwork and starting to control my food intake and exercise; starting to reach out to help and pray for other people. I have travel plans lined up. On the otherhand, I feel more lonely, more angry, more wanting not to be here and crying louder. So how am I doing? Its getting better and worse at the same time. That’s the only way I can think to describe it.

I plan to visit a Grief/share group next week.