I can't stay stuck on June 8

I turned over a new leaf today. Literally. The calendar page still read “June”. It was the Kinkade calendar that Jackie loved so much and June was the last month she was in the house and the last time she turned a calendar page. Like so many other things in this house, it had remained just as it was on June 8. That was the morning Jackie and I left the house early for the long-awaited appointment with the neurosurgeon. It was at that appointment that he said; “I am admitting you to the hospital right now.” Jackie never came back to our home again. She never left the hospital (though she was transferred a couple of times).

The house has started to take on the character of a bachelor (alright, it’s a mess). I need to go through the whole house as I have written before, starting with the garage, then my office then all the other areas. Eventually I’ll get to Jackie’s things. I need to do the same thing with my life. Since I have to stay here - its part of getting on with living. Its not that I want to do it, it’s just that I have to do it.

God says He does new things. I need Him to do new things in me right now. I can’t stay stuck on June 8 literally or emotionally but I am right now. And the calendar page and the house are just illustrations of that. Help me Lord to turn more pages of my life one step at a time.