Strengthened by the Lord, having a hope and a future, beginning to see some clarity in terms of the future, including ministry opportunities AND at the same time, completely undone, devastated and alone. How can these things co-exist? I am not sure, but I certainly am experiencing these extremes all at the same time (or at least within days or hours of one another!) Maybe that is what brokenness is. Maybe that’s how some of the prophets lived. Powerful and Weak. A Blessing to Others and yet SO Needy.
I know that in my mortal way of thinking I expect to become stronger and stronger, more independent, more self-directed, less dependent on others (and God). But I wonder if that is God’s plan?
His strength is made perfect in my weakness. Christ humbled Himself to become a little lower than the angels, even to being a servant. The prophets, the apostles, martyrs all suffered greatly. Many Christian around the world still do.
Frankly, life is not as much fun as it use to be nor as comfortable. But I do know that I love others more; that I love the Lord and depend on His promises a lot more to carry me through. I seem to have more clarity about what is really important in life. And I am blessed to see the effect I am having on others. When I share spiritual truth it seems to be well received, it rings true, is respected and seems effective. And yet all of this is happening while I am experiencing pain and sorrow mixed with joy in my heart.
I know that in my mortal way of thinking I expect to become stronger and stronger, more independent, more self-directed, less dependent on others (and God). But I wonder if that is God’s plan?
His strength is made perfect in my weakness. Christ humbled Himself to become a little lower than the angels, even to being a servant. The prophets, the apostles, martyrs all suffered greatly. Many Christian around the world still do.
Frankly, life is not as much fun as it use to be nor as comfortable. But I do know that I love others more; that I love the Lord and depend on His promises a lot more to carry me through. I seem to have more clarity about what is really important in life. And I am blessed to see the effect I am having on others. When I share spiritual truth it seems to be well received, it rings true, is respected and seems effective. And yet all of this is happening while I am experiencing pain and sorrow mixed with joy in my heart.
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