No matter wh
at I do in any given day or hour, what kind of fellow-ship, interaction, positive feedback, good exercise, no matter what, it never changes in the end. I am alone. I am alone and I am lonely. Always alone, less lonely than I use to be but still there are times like this afternoon when I hit the bottom of the pit of loneliness. She is gone, gone, gone. And will never come back. I can only go to her someday. King David in II Samuel 12:23 after much grieving, praying and fasting, when his baby son had died said, “can I bring him back again? I shall go to him (when I die), but he shall not return to me.”
Only a person who has lost a spouse understands this particular pain. And even then, having someone understand it doesn’t alleviate it. In the heat of the moment and the peak of my loneliness, it has such a grip on me there seems no way out - indeed there is no way out. It is a steel trap and I am locked in it by myself!
I find not so much comfort and companionship from the Lord when I feel lonely as much as answers, direction and new focus to my attention. when I am feeling lonely and ask Him, he shows me “a way of escape that I may be able to bear it.” (I Cor. 10:13). Much like what He does when I turn to Him when I am tempted.
at I do in any given day or hour, what kind of fellow-ship, interaction, positive feedback, good exercise, no matter what, it never changes in the end. I am alone. I am alone and I am lonely. Always alone, less lonely than I use to be but still there are times like this afternoon when I hit the bottom of the pit of loneliness. She is gone, gone, gone. And will never come back. I can only go to her someday. King David in II Samuel 12:23 after much grieving, praying and fasting, when his baby son had died said, “can I bring him back again? I shall go to him (when I die), but he shall not return to me.”Only a person who has lost a spouse understands this particular pain. And even then, having someone understand it doesn’t alleviate it. In the heat of the moment and the peak of my loneliness, it has such a grip on me there seems no way out - indeed there is no way out. It is a steel trap and I am locked in it by myself!
I find not so much comfort and companionship from the Lord when I feel lonely as much as answers, direction and new focus to my attention. when I am feeling lonely and ask Him, he shows me “a way of escape that I may be able to bear it.” (I Cor. 10:13). Much like what He does when I turn to Him when I am tempted.
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