I love to give gifts. My parents were generous with us kids and I caught that spirit. I like to do it anytime of the year but Christmas especially. I loved to buy things for Jackie. It hurts so much that I am unable to do that for her this year. I see things I could get her that would please her. I see a new bible study booklet, Cowboys paraphernalia (she would be so excited about the Cowboys this year!), a pair of slippers to replace those worn out ones she wore all the time, a gift certificate for a pedicure, a holiday poinsettia, a special Christmas decoration, a new Kinkade calendar, etc… Jackie was my favorite topic of study and I observed her all the time. Sometimes I would buy something when it was not a holiday. Sometimes, in the middle of the summer, I would write something down in my Day-Timer on the page for December. Then when Christmas came I was ready to shop. I really feel thwarted not to be able to get her anything this year. I am enjoying getting things for others however.
Any of the intangible things that I could give her frankly seem at first to be so epheral and empty but I guess they really are not. For example, I can give her my life lived well until it is time to join her. I can love her family and her Lord, and mine. I can try to maintain some of her relationships. I can give to and pray for the missionaries she loved. I can honor her memory and keep our shared values and committments.
Like the Lord, in a sense, she has everything she needs now. What can we give the Lord? Donations are nice; acts of service are good but most importantly we can walk humbly before Him and love others.
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